Why is 12 such a beautiful number you say? Because that is the number of children the Lord has now blessed us with! Yep- you heard me- TWELVE. I've been a little preoccupied here lately trying to not only wrap my mind around 12 but get ready for 12. 12- yes I said we will have twelve children. That is five new little people in our home. 3 girls and 2 boys- evening us out to 6 boys and 6 girls. How good is our God? We need 5 more beds, 5 more car seats, 5 more dressers, five more seats at the table, clothes for five more, etc. etc. And no, I have no idea what we are going to drive! ;0) Our new kiddo's are a sibling group of five coming to us through the foster system -but they are no longer foster children because we are adopting them. They are ages 5, 4, 3, 2, and 1. That gives us 8 children under the age of five. :0) Yet I don't feel like it is chaos, I just feel so incredibly blessed that God would see fit to give us five more.
Sometime back I prayed to the Lord and told Him I wanted Him to have all of me. And yet no matter how much I offered or how much I tried to give it all to Him- I kept pulling it back… reeling it back in… playing a game of tug of war. Give it to Him, take it back. Give it to Him, take it back.
So about 2 months ago once again I told God that I wanted to give everything I have to Him… but this time I asked Him to help me not take it back. I told God I wanted to be totally consumed with HIM more than anything in the world. I completely surrendered my life the way I new it and gave it all. All of it. Nothing held back. Nothing. Consumed by my love for Christ. Passion... intensity... courage.
He took me serious, and He took me up on my offer.
While Satan will take whatever shots he gets. we as a family constantly remind ourselves-that while yes we may look and "do things" differently, it's all for HIM and that is all that matters. In the end..we only answer to Him.
And I am in awe that no matter how many blessings we are given, each one is so unique. No matter how many babies I have, it is still as amazing as the first one.
Yes twelve is a beautiful number.