Monday, July 13, 2009

How much do you matter?

One of the greatest diseases is to be nobody to anybody.
~ Mother Teresa

Image with me for a minute…

Right now, today… you are small and alone.

You are hungry and lost.

You have no home, no parents, and seemingly no future.

You are scared, and weak, from days without food. You have no where to go, no where to be.

People walk by you but they don’t even look your way. It’s like you are invisible, nothing.

You keep walking, your feet are bleeding and sore… and yet still you manage to cling to the small bit of hope, the little voice inside your head that says maybe, just maybe, one day things will get better.

Maybe one day -you will matter.

It is getting dark outside- inside your fear is growing.

Where will you go?

Your heart is beating faster, and your fear becomes over whelming, consuming your every thought.

Then you see it, a dirty, broken cardboard box and you bow your head thanking God for His provision.

For you have found it- shelter.

Safety, if only for one night.

You slip underneath it, hugging yourself, vowing once again not to cry- because by now you know tears are a waste of your strength.

Your eyes become heavy, despite the sweltering temperature.

As you begin to drift off to sleep you pray, hoping, dreaming, of a family of your own one day...

of a place where you will matter...

to someone.


Half away around the world is a family...

They are just sitting down to dinner together.

They are smiling and their laughter fills the room.

Dinner is served and they bow their heads and they pray- thanking God for their many blessings… their home, their job, the food that is set before them.

They lift their heads and go back to the laughter and the joy.

They talk of their upcoming vacation plans, the lunch date they shared with a friend today and the movie they plan to see this coming weekend.

More laughter, more excitement, more.

As the leftovers are scraped into the garbage can and the table is cleaned up, hot bubble bathes are taken by all.

Evening settles in, and the family slips under their down comforters preparing for a good nights sleep.

Before turning out the lights, the husband leans over to kiss his wife good-night. She shyly smiles at him and begins to tell him that she has been feeling that perhaps God is calling them to adopt.

The room grows quiet as they are both lost in their own thoughts… their minds are flooded with questions, concern, and then inevitably -fear.

How could they manage?
Another child?
Why, they already have two!
Where would they put the child?
Who would share a room?
How could they afford to adopt?
Would they be able to take that vacation?
What would people think?
What if the child, you know, caused ‘problems’?

As their eyelids become heavy, they begin to drift off to sleep... and they think to themselves ‘surely not’.

Surely God knows this is not convenient.

Surely God wants them to take that vacation they deserve...

Surely he knows how busy they are.

They have plans and they have dreams.

As sleep overcomes them, the temperature in their master bedroom is perfect… and their pillows are fluffed to perfection.

Life is good for them, just as they had planned...

Because after all, they matter...

Too much...

to themselves.

"This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence whenever our hearts condemn us. "- 1 John 3:16-20

32 comments:

Kim said...

What a moving post. I pray it stirs hearts and moves readers into action!
Love & Blessings from Hong Kong,
Kim

Andrea H. said...

You preach it my dear sister. I have tears running down my face and that dang book crazy love is still in my head and not helping to get any of these thoughts about crazy love for God out of my head. I tell you what... Changes are coming, even if I can't convert my whole family (only God can), but as for me, I know...
IN HIM

natali said...

wow! i really love your post - just how moving it is & the blinding truth in it :))

Blessed Mom of 8 said...

Amy - OK what in the world is going on with you lately - whatever it is KEEP IT FLOWING OUT OF YOU!!!!!

I KNOW WHO IS AT WORK!

AMEN! AMEN! AMEN!!!!

I'm copying and linking to you!

WOW!

Love you - from another Mommy whose heart is aching in Africa!

Jill

Melinda said...

So powerful Amy! Just the kind of stuff that is on my mind every hour of every day. I am almost finished reading Scared by Tom Davis and it is so moving and powerful. Surely a must read if you want to be broken even more for the least of these.

God's Not Finished With Us Yet... said...

Hi Amy,

Read this post from Jill's blog. What an amazing story, but not just a story but a true fact for so many. It broke my heart!

I love, LOVE, the quote you have typed on your header image!

Following you!
~Sarah

Are These Kids All Yours? said...

Love it! Convicting in a good way! In a way that keeps us going. In a way that we need to keep sharing God's story of our family. In a way that makes us realize that when asked for the millionth time when it is inconvenient to us....to share what adoption is...why....what sacrifices God requires of us....Thank you for sharing this. I pray so many more Christians will stand up for God's Children!!!!

Doreen said...

love your thoughts... helps to put our life thing sna issues in perspective!!

Hilltrain said...

Wow! Thanks for the timely reminder of how comforable and selfish we are. We NEED to know how others live so we will do something. Thank-you for opening an old wound in my heart yet again.

His Hands His Feet Today said...

That was beautiful! I'm copying it and linking it back to you... annointed words my friend :)
Love,
K

Donna said...

Beautifully said! Thanks for taking the time to share your thoughts in such an awesome way that speaks right to the heart of the issue.
Delight in Him
PS just found your blog yesterday too!!

Andrea said...

Wow, just found your blog from AndreaH's.
What a powerful post!
Thank you

Audrey said...

I am going to put this on my blog. I was struggling to find the words to express how I was feeling today and then I come over here to Amy's world and you have summed it up perfectly.

My heart is really aching today for our little boy on the other side of the world and my prayers this morning are for him and the next one. and the next one. and the next one?

Holly said...

Amy, did you write this?
Can I post it on my blog?
This hit the nail right on the head!

Adeye said...

Oh wow--what a beautiful post. I absolutely love it!

Mashel said...

I just came via Kim's blog at His Hands His feet, and I love this post. So so true, but it doesn't even have to be on the other side of the world, it can be a child in their own backyard. We are foster parents and praying that we are able to adopt through the foster care system. If you'd like to see my blog, email me and I can add you, (it has to be private because of the pictures I post) You have many, many wonderful words of truth and encouragement here. I love it. Thanks for sharing.
Mashelhall@comcast.net.

soontobemomof9 said...

1 John 3:16 - 20 is a passage that is dear to me for it is what set my feet most strongly on this latest journey of adopting my 2 girls!

You brought me to tears... so true, so beautifully written. I praise God that what you wrote is not about me!!!! Thank you Jesus!

Kelly

Karin said...

Amazing post! I came over from "Purpose Driven Life" and was very moved. I plan to post a link to your blog on mine.

Karin--Mommy to 10 adopted treasures

Amy said...

This a very thought provoking post.

Jill said...

Oh Amy...I came to visit by the prompting of Holly...oh, how glad I came to see you tonight! What sweet words and what conviction!
Thank you!
Jill from The Glen

Emily said...

Wow! Thanks for some perspective!
I have linked this to my blog.

One Big Fat Sugar Mama said...

So proud of you. So proud to be called your friend.

The gFamily said...

I needed this post to boost me into action to do something more! After we brought Gillian home and Guatemala shut down, I think I shut down. That is awful to admit, but it is true! We definitely have room for more and definitely enough love, which is all that matters! Thank you for this post! I love hearing God speak through you! Truly amazing!!

darci said...

oh wow, i'm bawling right now. thanks for this beautiful post, and for your kind words and prayers on my blog. darci

Hannah said...

Beautiful. Thank you...I still feel a need to adopt again.

Kimmie said...

If only His Church would wake up. I know not *all* are called to adopt...but there has to be MORE than there is NOW!

Too many excuses Church...there are orphans to whom God commanded us to care for. You KNOW He adopts us...He is the Spirit of Adoption...

seek Him, ask Him, don't wait, don't make any excuses, don't say *soon* or maybe in a few years, there is a child right now who needs you.

Won't you step out as His hands and feet and love a child who wants and desperately is praying for a family?

Waiting until October...when we have passed our required 9 months post our last Ethiopian adoption...to jump back in and bring another of our *family* home.

bless you Amy

Kimmie
mama to 7
one homemade and 6 adopted

aamayna said...

Wow, I just found your blog. Amazing!!!

jajbs said...

I just found your blog and am thanking GOd for it! This was such an amazing post. We adopted from Guatemala. Our daughter came home in Oct. of 2007. BOth my husband and I desire to work in an orphanage fulltime someday. I feel a tug at my heart to adopt from Africa, but finances are standing in the way. We are still trying to pay off our other adoption debt and right now it just seems impossible. However, everything I read these days is really encouraging me. Thanks!

You just gained a new follower of your blog!

amanda

McMurrays said...

loved this. . amazing!
I linked this post from our blog I hope that is okay. .

Janice said...

Thank you for allowing yourself to be an instrument, you have really touched my heart.

julie said...

That was so moving and truthful, even those of us who have a heart for aodption like our own comfort zone. I know I could do more.

Can you please keep our family in your prayers. We are trying to get our children home from Ethiopia and have encountered some snags. Prayers are greaty appreciated.

Julie

Sande said...

Just watched slumdog millionaire.

Believe God is telling me something.