Tonight at dinner I was walking around the table serving the kids. I was talking and explaining to our kids that tomorrow a couple from our church that is interested in adoption will be coming over to visit with us (they are using the same foster agency we used and part of their training is to 'observe' a foster or adoptive family). I continued on, serving up the mashed potatoes, and saying how I was so excited that they were wanting to adopt and how happy I was for them. Then out of the corner of my eye I saw Lainey look at Jayla and then they both sort of sank down into their chairs with a devastated look on their faces. So I stopped what I was doing, put down the bowl, went over to them and asked if they were okay. Tears started steaming down their little faces and they were both visibly shaken. With as much courage as she could gather Lainey said in this small voice "I thought we got to stay here forever." It took a second for me to understand... a second to realize that I was getting a glimpse inside their world. My beautiful, precious little girls thought I was telling them that yet another family was coming to take them away. As I held them both in my arms and hugged them, over and over I assured them that there was no way I would ever, EVER send them away. No way that I would ever, ever not be their mommy. Forever and ever and always.
How do I begin to prove that?